In my professional life, I loved teaching people about the process of life change, of change in general, of changes you plan, of unanticipated changes, of changes you choose knowing that some elements of the process are out of your control. Despite all this intellectual fire power and even wisdom, in my younger years, I never did much like entering the mystery of the unknown.
Yet, now 72, I’ve lived through many big changes–some chosen and others not. I have come to understand, in moments of clarity, that change involves entering sacred space and watching one’s intentions get met by universal forces that you can’t quite explain. Holding on to your intention, paying attention, and surrendering to the mystery is necessary.
I recently surprised myself coming to the decision that “I’m done here.” In other words, I needed to move. And I started “moving” on that essential clarity. The fact that I’ve CHOSEN a new path does not make it any less of a BIG DEAL. Selling my home, relocating, albeit close by, and entering the last chapter of my life in more supportive living circumstances is a big change. Like HUGE.
Surrender is not my strong suit.
Wish me luck!
Everything that slows us down and forces patience, everything that sets us back into the slow circles of nature, is a help. ~May Sarton
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